Thank You Mom!

You were there when we took our first steps,
And went unsteadily across the floor.
You pushed and prodded: encouraged and guided,
Until our steps took us out the door...

You are the one who cooks bacons and eggs for the three of us...
do the laundries, the dishes and almost everything..

How did you find the energy?
To do all the things you did,
To be teacher, nurse and counselor
To us, when we're a kid.

How did you do it all?
Be a chauffeur, cook and friend,
Yet find time to be a playmate,
I just can't comprehend.

I see now it was love, Mom
That made you come whenever We'd call,
Your inexhaustible love, Mom
And We, Kuya Donald, Kuya Junior and Me thank you for it all.

Thank you for everything Mom. :)

Where we are is where you have led us,
With your special love you showed us a way,
To believe in ourselves and the decisions we make.
Taking on the challenge of life day-to-day.
And where we go you can be sure,
In spirit you shall never be alone.
For where you are is what matters most to us,
Because to us that will always be home...

We love you so much Ma.. mwah :)

Someday I'll have a story to tell...

Though it's hard to imagine, someday I'll tell my children the story I'm writing with my life today.
But that realization does little to save me from the puzzling maze called now.
" History never looks like history when you're living through it, It always look confusing and messy, and it always feel uncomfortable," says John Gardner.

I am now in the middle of messiness and confusion. I still have so many questions. Will I know when I'm walking trough my story for first time? Will I have to choose between the person who loves me and the one I love? What matters when I'm already 50 years old? Will time stand still for one moment to tell me that this person-this one person, out of all the billions bustling on the planet-is the one? Will I realize when it happens? Or might i miss it?

Some questions are probably best left unasked. I know I should put them aside and wait for life to unfold it's mysteries. Someday when I'm older and wiser I'll sit back and tell my story to someone who will listen. I'll probably tell some young fool the same things I get so tired of hearing from others " You can't rush these things".

Someday when I'll look back on my story it will definitely bring tears of joy and tears of remorse. It will remind me of God's Goodness. It will be a story of Selfless Love, Faith and Commitment.
Remember, someone, somewhere will read your story and be it a happy story or a story with sadness, it may have as much meaning to the reader, as it has to you.

Many of us lead similar lives, if we can gain experience from each other, our lives hopefully, should be easier.

Unconditionaol LOVE

If you love someone you'll accept her past and all the mistakes that she have done... you'll love that person unconditionally... even if she is the worst person to love... you'll protect her, love her and TRUST her... you'll accept her for who she is and not... even if she can't wear those mini skirts and fitting shirts because she's fat, you would still look at her and see the most beautiful person and you'll believe that her beauty is skin deep.. you'll hold her hand as if you don't want to let it go... and you won't ask her to change for someone that she is not... Love unselfishly.. Love unconditionally... no conditions, no buts, no ifs... :(

PJYO

I know we ended up a nice conversation earlier. We exchanged " i love you's "

But I went to bed tonight realizing how much pain this situation has caused "US" ...

Though I also tried to shut my eyes and tried to hide the sad truth of the situation. Spending more time with HIM lately has made me feel unexplainable happiness... I don't know If he felt it but I really tried my best to make the most of our time together... Holding his hand made me feel so strong... Being near him gives me strength to strive more in life. As i get to know him more, I'm loving HIM more... And I'm falling in love with him each and every day, and i can no longer hold back my feelings ..

Honestly, I wanted to enumerate all memorable moments that we had. BayPark, Legion, Bulalo, Carinderias, Kabigting, Halo-Halo, Pampanga, Baclaran Church, Eastwood, 2 1/2 hrs workout, jogging, badminton, mineral water and a lot more... But every time I get to think of those stuffs, it just adds up to the pain I'm feeling right now. Also, I cant count them all... What we had isn't ordinary... First times!

I love HIM ... But loving him isn't enough to save me from the heartaches. It has brought me a lot of happiness and it sure did made me feel complete...

I am a happy fool. :P

Long Distance Relationships

Nearly everyone has experienced a long distance relationship at some point in his life. Most of us have failed to maintain it and have broken up, even though this may have been a promising relationship. Why is that so?

To begin with, I was there myself. My ex-boyfriend and I both failed to make it lasts. But I still believed that if both person really love each other and their feelings are real, distance would never be the reason to break up.I realized that you must have true interest in each other, I mean a deep emotional connection, whether you’ve been together before or not. Physical attraction is not enough.we tried to use the glorious benefits of modern communication world i just asked for one (at least just one) email everyday but maybe he’s too busy to that. And just typing the word “ILOVEYOU” everyday in his keyboard would eaten up his time.I thought that using all this electronic stuffs will make it easier for the both of us, Imagine how it used to be 100 years ago, when a letter used to take months.but it didn’t!Our one sided communication- I mean with no physical interaction leads us to frustration intensively, that leads us both to misunderstandings that are very difficult to resolve trough phone call, e-mail or ym’s.And it’s really hard to have a fight over the phone.

Long distance relationships have both, advantages and disadvantages. For some, the distance is a good help to slowly open up to the relationship without the incessant presence of the partner. The romance stays kindled because you aren’t around the person 24/7 seeing various habits and routines that can get repetitive.

In terms of disadvantages, it is very frustrating that there is no intimacy, no hugging, no kissing. You will experience difficulties in connecting because you don’t have eye contact and can’t take walks or enjoy dinners out together.Remember, you only get a real connection by touching, feeling and smelling a person. You don’t get scent with email or skype, or that initial wow you feel inside when you see your love.

It’s the quality, not the quantity.

As you can see, I’m definitely positive about long distance relationships. They expose ongoing life lessons, and prove that love, loyalty, and faith are the vital ingredients to a lasting relationship.

Have faith, have trust and you both will succeed in the END. :)

GOD's Perfect Time

Today was the turning point. I stopped trusting in my own carefully laid plans and asked GOD to show me His.
I remember those days that I've been miserable, the pains, the tears and the hurt. It was just now when I've realized that GOD was parading HIS plan for my future right in front of my eyes. He had mapped a course for me that was more wonderful than anything I could come up with on my own, and HE was making sure that in the days to come I would never question that this good plan had originated in HIS mind.

It's been a year now.

Things didn't change overnight, but slowly my feelings for him subsided. God used that time to teach me to trust HIM with my heart, to believe that if our relationship wasn't HIS plan, He would help take it away and change my heart. And he did. He took the feelings away.

Perhaps after all my worries and questions, I've discovered that all along GOD had the right thing at the right time for me, for us.

I just couldn't do what felt right; I had to do what was right.

... Moving On...

The pain of waiting.

Waiting for someone you love is never easy it may even be irrelevant especially when the one you’re waiting for isn’t aware that you’re waiting..

I always wished for the same thing someone to love & who’ll love me back.. but today, i think I'm gonna wish for something else.. the wisdom & maturity to realize that i wont find what i want by looking for it.. that i shouldn't expect someone else to give me what i never give to myself that I'm not half waiting to be made whole & even if that special person never comes along I’ll be just fine..

Sometimes we could be so stubborn holding on to something we want so badly.. there is nothing wrong in hoping for love but there are times that we simply have to accept that its over.. :(